Do you ever wonder what teachers do in their free time? What they eat, who they talk to, what sort of activities they actually take interest in (Besides studying, teaching or learning.). I mean, to students, they’re just the people who annoy the heck out of us by barraging into our heads a lot of things we don’t really care about. To students, they’re practically nobody.

They’re not friends, not matter what they say. They’re not the people we tell our secrets to., no matter how much they tell us that we can talk to them about anything. They’re not the people who we can genuinely laugh out loud with… simply because they’re our teachers. There’s only one or two out there that would actually be someone a student would feel be worth stopping to talk to and spend some time with, y’know, just hang out.

But then, it makes me wonder, do teacher’s think the same way? Do teachers think about what their students do when they’re not studying? What they take interest in? What makes them laugh?

Having hundreds of students, I don’t think they do. Having hundreds of students, I think teachers never really 100% mean it when they say, “You can talk to me anytime.”. To teachers, students are just the people they barrage a lot of things they probably don’t really care about. To teachers, students are practically nobody, too.

Do teachers think that there’s only one or two students out there that they feel is worth stopping to talk to and spend time with? If a student smiles at a teacher and hugs her, does the teacher consider her to be a friend already? Not a mere acquaintance, but a friend? Do you ever wonder if the teachers celebrate friendship day? When they’re at the faculty, do they exchange gifts? When they’re at the faculty, do they talk about retarded stuff and laugh about it?

Come to think of it, what do teachers find funny when they’re with other teachers? Do they make fun of students and laugh at them the way some students do? Do teachers blog or rant about their life to the internet or to other teachers? I wonder how many of them have a life outside the teaching business. Huh. Why do you think it’s so weird when a student sees a teacher in the mall?

I wonder what they think about when they figure out they’ve built a reputation of being the teacher everyone hates and fears. Do they really care about what the students think of them? Is it a, “As long as I do my job properly, I don’t care what they think.” kind of thing? Teachers are just so hate-able to students.

I wonder how many teachers whole-heartedly mean it when they say that the satisfaction of knowing that their student has grown to be a successful person is enough retribution for all the hardships they’ve gone through as teachers.


An atheist is someone, to put it rather broadly/bluntly, who doesn’t believe in the existence of a supreme being. In other words, God. I know two people who are atheists. More of acquaintances but less than actual friends. A little while ago, I had a chat, a sort of interview with one of them -the one I’m a bit closer to.

Male, fifteen years old, studying in a Catholic school.

The first thing I asked was, “What’s it like being an atheist?” I now realize that maybe I put it a bit too directly but he didn’t seem to mind.

He answered, “It’s not all that’s cracked up to be.”

I asked him stuff like, if he chose to be an atheist and he answered that people can’t force you to be an atheist, but then I replied, “But isn’t it sort of like having religion? I mean, for now, our religion is being forced unto us because we’re not of age yet. Isn’t it the same thing?”

He just shrugged.

And everything sort of started from there. Denise joined me after hearing his answer. I asked why he didn’t believe in a supreme being and he said, “Give me an example of something you define your God to be.” or something close to that.

Denise said, “God is good.”

He said, “If he is good, then why does he create all this war? This pain? This suffering?”

I said, “If we didn’t have troubles, life would be boring.”

Denise said, “People learn through their suffering.”

Then he brought up another issue. “God gave us free will and yet he says that everything is according to his will…”

I finished his thought by saying, “Then what’s the point of giving us free will in the first place?”

He nodded in agreement.

Denise then said, “God gave us a choice.”

But then I said, “If God gave us a choice and yet he says that he knows everything already, then why bother giving us that choice in the first place?”

I thought, Why give us the choice when the outcome is something he planned anyway?

It was a rather enlightening talk. I asked him, “What if it was in God’s plan to make you an atheist?”

He answered something I’d forgotten but then he said something that ended with this, “…because He doesn’t exist!”

Somehow, it didn’t disturb as much as it probably should. Maybe because I knew He did exist. For my friend to say something like that without hesitation, and with such passion made me think. How many people do you see going around telling people, “I believe in God.”?

Then I asked him, “If you don’t believe in God, what do you believe in?”

When he didn’t answer, I said, “Since God is everything and you don’t believe in him then that means you believe in nothing.”

Denise said, “That’s sad…”

He then repeated, “Well, being an atheist isn’t what it’s cracked up to be.”

Jebbie came somewhere in the middle and started asking questions, too like, “Why don’t you try believing in him?”

He answered every question and I sort of admired him for having the courage to believe in not believing. I wonder if it’s easier to believe in nothing than to believe in something. Atheists compared to Catholics, who has a greater faith? The atheists who put all their faith in believing there is no God or the Catholics who put all their faith in believing in a God they haven’t seen? I’m going to end here because religion isn’t really a topic I’d like to discuss. Especially this because mainly, I believe that there is a God and I believe that what he does, he does because he loves us.

My friend, being the opinionated person he is… I wonder if he’s lonely.

Tell me, what do you believe in?

Third floor, please.

September 11, 2008

Sometimes, I feel guilty when I use the elevator. I live on the third floor of the building and it just seems wrong for me to use the elevator instead of just using the stairs. I have this really paranoid feeling that when I use the elevator -no bags or any belongings-, people think badly of me. I feel guilty especially when I leave the elevator and I see out of the corner of my eye that there’s this person hurriedly pressing the close button.

I dunno. I’m paranoid like that.

Sweet, Sweet Irony

September 7, 2008

IRONY just loves to barge in when we least expect it. It just seems to walk hand-in-hand with Murphy’s Law. It feeds off the thoughts of the pessimists as it craves attention from everything and everyone else until we’re all walking around with dark clouds over our heads.

“God, what did I do wrong?!

I, for one, would like to focus on these particular scenarios:

  • A teenager going through a difficult time in his/her life says, “My parents are never there. They don’t know anything. I wish they’d pay a bit more attention to me.”
  • Teenager gets in trouble. He’s failing a subject. She’s the laughing stock of the whole school. He got into a fight.
  • Parent finds out. Parent lectures him for hours. “When I was your age…”. Mother tells her to ignore the taunts. Father yells at him which makes him even madder.
  • They’re FINALLY paying attention to the teenager.

But did he/she want his/her parents knowing and intervening? -most of the time, they don’t. Whatever happened to “I wish they’d pay a bit more attention to me.“?

  • How ironic is it that when kids need the most attention, the most care and comforting, they push away the ones who can actually give the care and comfort they need -the parents?
  • How ironic is it that when the parents actually start paying attention to the kid, that’s when the kid doesn’t want the attention?

Whose fault is it? The parents’? or the kid’s?

There are many reasons why kids never tell their parents anything. The reasons, in a nutshell, usually mean, “They’ll never understand. So why bother?”. See, that’s the thing. For parents TO UNDERSTAND, you have to TELL THEM. You have to explain to them the severity of whatever tragedy you might be going through. They wouldn’t know. Times have changed. Drastically so, I might add.

How do you expect them to understand when they don’t know what they’re supposed to be understanding?

But then, the problem doesn’t always lie with the child.

Many parents have a one-track mind. I don’t want to assume anything. I’m just guessing from what I’ve observed. When a child gets a low grade in the report card, he is immediately terrified of showing it to his parents. Why? Because most parents think that:

Report Card=Ultima My-Child’s-School-Status-Report.

Although the report card is a very accurate way of knowing what is going on when your kid is at school, it’s not JUST THAT. Your child is failing math. The end. That’s it. He needs a tutor because he just doesn’t get it. NO. WAIT. ASK FIRST. WHY are you failing math?

This is the second thing I’d like to point out from my observations. Many adults seem to like to assume things. I’m not saying that they always jump into conclusions it’s just that sometimes, because of their age, because of their authority, because they’re our parents, almost EVERYTHING they say is right and final.

It’s already become a classic to hear the line, “…Because I’m an ADULT.

When your head is constantly hurting and you’re a bookworm, parents say, “You need glasses.” and they rant on how you just LOVE to read in dark places/under dim lighting or read while lying down, but then you never do. You don’t tell them that you lie awake every night in your bed. You can’t get to sleep, thinking about something that’s deeply troubling you. You’re afraid to tell them because you think they’re going to ask, “What’s troubling you?”. You’d rather you go all the way to buy a pair of glasses for someone with 20/20 vision.

This is another problem with kids. They’re always afraid to say something, always afraid to confess what’s really happening in their lives. They just have to be tragically misunderstood even if they bring it upon themselves -unintentionally or not. They just don’t trust parents with the secrets of modern teenhood because parents are the most influential of all adults. They have the power to alter reality for kids and shape the world in a way that they’d like their children to live in. That is what the kids are afraid of. It’s either:

They say something and a dramatic change happens.


They say something and nothing happens. The fact that they know anyway just creates this barrier of total awkwardness between them.

And the reason kids are afraid is because parents just don’t get it. Many members of the adult population just don’t understand. I’ve already said it. They even point it out themselves.

When I was your age...”

That’s it. They just don’t want to listen. They don’t want to understand. They just don’t comprehend the fact that it’s different now. Just because they’ve gone through the kid stage doesn’t mean they’ve got it all figured out. Just because the adults have been kids before doesn’t mean they’ve experienced all there is to being a kid because face it -you’re not kids anymore. You’ve got the wisdom that comes with age, we know that but just think about how limited that wisdom still is. Have you ever seen a teenager rant to his parents? Have you ever seen a kid and his parents watch anime together?

Embrace the differences. You don’t have to like it but you could at least experience it for the sake of getting closer with your kids. There’s nothing to lose. Stop living in the past. Hold on to it but not so much that you forget that there’s a future.

IRONY just loves to barge in when we least expect it, but that’s what makes life just a little bit more interesting. Just think about how you can take something that creates such a negative effect and turn it into something you can laugh at not only with friends but both as parents with your children and as children with your parents. Loosen up. Learn to accept. LIVE.

Keep The Love Alive

August 13, 2008

Guess what today is:

It’s AKUROKU day!

also known as:


Of course, many people wouldn’t know that. But I, being the devoted fangirl that I am, have memorized its very essence.

It’s a day to celebrate the love, be it friendly or romantic, between


number VIII in Organization XIII

Flurry of Dancing Flames



number XIII of Organization XIII

Key of Destiny

Both of Kingdom Hearts II.

Now, many of you might be saying, they’re not gay. They’re best friends and blah blah blah. I’ve heard a lot of that already. Really, I’ve been a victim of being lectured on that, too. But seriously people, would that stop the whole being of Akuroku? Would lecturing them on how the love between them is non-existent prevent them from drawing fan-art, writing fanfiction and the like?

How would you like it if we lectured you about something you like?

We know very well nothing romantic happened between them during the game. (Although they had a very touching moment on the clock tower and Axel’s death was a beauty in itself). Can’t we just make it so that they get their happy ending? Can’t the fans write something or draw something that would keep whatever they had between them alive? Can’t it develop into something more?

It’s a world ruled by imagination. Anything can happen. So why are you trying to stop it? Don’t you think the world would be a much brighter place if this imagination had a bit of love in it? It’s not so uncommon that you see two best friends fall in love, right? Be they both male. What are you trying to prove by stopping something this passionate?

Akuroku may not be a universal like, but it’s still something that many other people devote to. I believe it makes us see some things that some other people don’t. I believe it’s not just a pairing because they’re both hot or because they just happened to be best friends. I believe there’s something more to that. Something deeper. Why do you think there are fangirls for this in the first place?

I just recently purchased Tsubasa Chronicle Vol. 16, 17 and 18, and I have to say that I absolutely love how it everything turns dark and how the atmosphere between all of them changes.

Warning: May contain spoilers.

Sakura finally gets exposed to something that actually endangered her life. She actually journeyed alone and found not only the physical pain of journeying and running from lost battles, but also the emotional pain of seeing firsthand how those mysterious feathers of hers are affecting the people in the other dimensions. Let’s face it people, she was pretty much a burden during the first few volumes because she’s just a magnet for trouble but at least now, she’s doing something. And she’s doing something now because she CAN.

It’s also a bit heart breaking to see someone like her to break like that -when the Syaoran she has been traveling with isn’t actually the original “Syaoran”. It’s hard to see her struggling over what or even who to believe now. She’s more confused than ever but at least now, she’s much more determined.

I love how even her character has some development. It’s a bit rare to see a main character like Sakura get any character development because they just seem to be made perfect.

-The relationship between Fai and Kurogane has improved so much, I can’t imagine what would happen if they separate. Kurogane has come to care so much about Fai so much that he was willing to do anything to save him. He was willing to become Fai’s “game” to keep him alive. He made a deal with the witch -a person he has never trusted- just to keep Fay breathing. I adore the relationship they have.

And we see now that Fai is breaking down, too. His usual care-free and smile-y attitude is slowly deteriorating. He’s showing his weakness only to find that it’s those weaknesses that make him stronger -especially with Kurogane always by his side. I’m happy to see that Fai trusts Kurogane to keep him alive. Hitsuzen, indeed.

Syaoran must be hurting a lot. When I say Syaoran, I mean the original one, because he’s the one who’s supposed to be Sakura’s knight in shining armor but it just wasn’t him. Sure he may be back now, but can he fix the damage that has already been inflicted -especially now since there’s another Syaoran running wild and bloodthirsty for the feathers through the other dimensions? And how are they supposed to feel comfortable with him when every memory they’ve had, the original Syaoran only saw through that eye of his?

What I’m worried about him now is what will happen to him and Sakura?

It’s a manga series worth collecting. It’s one worth waiting for. Don’t worry that it’s going too long, or some volumes are just getting too boring because now things are shaping up into scenarios when anything can happen. I mean, Syaoran just gorged Fai’s eye out. How can you tell me you were expecting that?

The art is still as beautifully consistent as ever.

The plot is wonderful.

The development is simply amazing.

So I’ve watched the final episode of Magikano.

It was interesting. I like the whole magical action and the battles and everything but it came to this one part that just astonished me. I watched that certain part with a face that said, “What?“. See, what happened was, Ayumi entered the magic sphere that Haruo was creating and Haruo threw rocks at her. Yes, rocks. So her Neko panties helped her out by shooting beams of magic at them. But wait. There’s more. 😀

Haruo a.k.a. the Demon Lord then decided to throw a gigantic boulder at her. Ayumi, after a flash of magic, realized that she was still alive and the massive rock has disintegrated. She realized that it was the Neko panties she was wearing that saved her when the said ripped up underwear started slipping down her legs.

Then they had a touching moment -Ayumi and the dying Neko panties slipping down her legs. The underwear commented on how Ayumi never liked wearing him anyway and Ayumi disagreed with him. So the Neko panties just laughs and says in a sad tone how easily he came off before he finally slips off her legs, falls a bit into the oblivion below and bursts into flames.

Now, watching it happen on the TV with the whiny voices of the English dubbing, it would look a bit comical and it’s something you’d say, “What the hell?” to. But I’m a person who likes finding the deeper meanings in the things in life (be it my paranoid nature or something special), so I want you to think about it. Better yet, actually watch the series first. Sure a pair of undies might seem like something you wouldn’t take seriously but if you go over it in your head, it was a sad thing, watching it die just like that.

See, Ayumi and the Neko panties shared a special ‘bond’ between them. Something in a less literal meaning, obviously. No matter how much they bickered in the past Ayumi still agreed to put on the Neko panties before going into battle -protest or no because she trusts that he will be there to actually help and he did help her. In fact, he saved her life in exchange for his own. He protected her.

  • It’s the beauty of self-sacrifice in the midst of something people take for granted.

What’s more, he made Ayumi realize that while the Neko panties didn’t really want anything else but to be able to be there to help her, to save her, she felt the same way for Haruo. The Neko panties didn’t even care about dying if it meant he would be able to save Ayumi. The underwear made her realize that she herself didn’t care about anything else but saving Haruo.

  • It’s the beauty of desperation.

Maybe you might not think the same way I am right now. You might not agree and say that it was nothing but a comical scene with destroyed underwear and a girl talking to it. But even so, it gave me something to contemplate about. It gave me and probably other people like me the chance to find a deeper meaning in something we can all laugh at. It made me find beauty in the little, amusing things in life.

For me, ANIME is something that gives me sort of an escape from the harsh reality I’m living in. It’s a bit like fairy tales only the drama is more interesting. XD. Anime serves as an inspiration for me and I suppose it does for a lot of people, too. I’ve noticed that a lot of people are all hiked up about some recent anime shows like:

La Corda D’Oro Primo Passo (ran- 1 October 200625 March 2007)

Death Note (ran- 3 October 200626 June 2007)

Vampire Knight (ran- 7 April 2008 – 30 June 2008)

Reborn! (running- 6 October 2007- ongoing)

Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann (ran- 1 April 2007 – 30 September 2007)

You get the picture.

Sure, I totally understand that these shows are great. I mean, I’ve got the DVD’s of the shows I’ve mentioned plus and minus a few more. They’re interesting. They’re modern. They’re funny and the plots are simply amazing. Either that, or simply cliched. You’d have to admit, there are a lot of anime shows now that just seem so predictable, that the only thing that keeps you watching is either the wonderful animation or the fact that it’s just plain funny -even if it doesn’t make any sense.

Seriously people, have you forgotten where exactly you started your journey towards the world of anime? Have you forgotten the who’s and the what’s that made you ask for more? Have you all forgotten about these anime series that made a mark on the history of anime?

Lalabel, The Magic Girl (1980-1981) Though this show may be a bit annoying sometimes, especially since the main character is a spoiled brat that can magic her way through almost anything, it does have it good points, too. It’s amusing, I can say that. And the Grandfather always has some moral to say at the end of every episode.

Hello! Lady Lynn (1988-1989) Here’s a story of how a young girl goes through a lot on her journey to become a lady. I’ve watched this and I’ve got to say, for a Shoujo anime, I’ve come to like it a lot. The drama of a little girl and how she just influences everyone and everything around her own intrigues me.

Daddy Long Legs (1990) Now this seriously had me anticipating each episode that came. The story of an orphan with the help of a complete stranger gets through life’s hardships and finds love. Aaaw. Though the animation wasn’t really as pleasing as I’d like because sometimes they just used the same scenes over and over again, the plot was clean, it was interesting and the twist at the end left my jaw hanging. XD.

Sailor Moon (1992-1997 with 200 episodes by the way.) How could you forget Sailor Moon? So many artists started out with Sailor Moon! Though I haven’t really watched so much of it because I’m not really fond of the whole magical girl transforming idea because the transformation always takes so long and it gets tiring. Sailor Moon kept me watching, though because… it’s just… Sailor Moon. 😀

Akazukin Cha Cha – (1994-1995) Another of those magical girl ideas with weird names. I mean, I wouldn’t really be threatened by a weapon called the, “Beauty Love Arrow”. Nonetheless, this anime left a special mark on me because of it’s humor and plot.

Magic Knight Rayearth – (1994-1995) C’mon, people, this is CLAMP we’re talking about. It’s not really something you get tired of.

Fushigi Yuugi – (1995-1996) Now, if you’re telling me you haven’t gone around watching this (or Ayashi no Ceres), in my opinion, you’re missing out. Watch it for a little bit of action and a lot on love, because I seriously think its main theme is love.

Clamp School Detectives – (1997) I fell in love with this series the moment I laid eyes on the characters. CLAMP is killing me with the awesomeness of their characters. The series is funny and heart-warming. The only thing I couldn’t comprehend is how Suoh (5th grader) and Akira (4th graders) had Kindergarten girlfriends… XD

Samurai X – (1996-1998 ) 8) Hello, Battousai, the Slasher? You’d never be able to forget something this epic.

Detective Conan – (1996-still ongoing) Now, if you haven’t heard of this, you’ve been living under a rock. The manga has been around since 1994. It’s got about 500+ episodes and 12 movies. The best part is that it hasn’t got the monotonous feel some detective anime shows have because of the deeper plot within it. And of course, the question still remains -Will Conan Edogawa return to being Shinichi Kudo?

And I’m sure we all still remember the more recent-but-not-so series, right?

Ghosts At School (2000-2001) This was the first anime that seriously freaked me out. There were a few episodes on this series that had me lying awake on my bed, paranoid for a few days. I loved this anime to bits, I swear. How could you not love watching something like this?

Detective School Q (2003-2004) This has been one of my favorites for a long, long time. In fact, it still is! I never get tired of watching this over and over again. Its like Detective Conan only a bit more colourful. XD.

Face it people, you’ve forgotten about these, haven’t you? You’ve stopped watching these already, haven’t you? Take a trip down memory lane. I may not have mentioned what anime you grew up with but I really think you should take the time to remember and have a sort of marathon night to “bond” with the anime that you started with.

Anime isn’t just some fashion trend that gets old and when it does, it’s not cool anymore. Anime is forever. 😀 They’re like diamonds only more affordable. XD.

The World is My Oyster.

July 11, 2008

The World is my Oyster. I don’t know what that means. 😀

Listen to Pachelbel’s Canon in D and you’ll find so many other songs very familiar.